“Sometimes, I need to remember who loves my soul. When the dust settles all need is You & Me time.”
You, as in Jesus. Me, as in you.
There are a lot of moving parts in my life right now! At times, it can feel like I am being pulled into many different directions, as everyone is wanting a piece of my time, effort, attention etc. This week has definitely been one of those weeks, but I am reminded of one person who asks nothing of me. Jesus. He didn’t request payment for trading places with me on the Cross. He didn’t count up all the breaths God has given me and then ask for reimbursement.
When we reflect on life, you’ll see that everyone is requiring something from us, parents, siblings, friends, spouses, employers, instructors etc. Even still, through the chaos and stress of having multiple hands out, we deliver. Yet, how many times do we give Jesus contemplation, love and adoration?
This week, my prayer is that we will return the love of the person who never asked to be loved, and make time for the one, who first made time for us.
I’ve tried to spend this past week engaging and being active with my loved ones. All the tragedies and disasters of this year have really caused me to pull back the smoke screen of “happiness” to see the things that truly matter!
I often wonder about Jesus and how he handled the notion that he had to go to the Cross. Giving his life for people that may or may not even acknowledge his name. What a challenging thought to come to grips with!
It’s clear from Matthew 26:39, that Jesus pondered other options, pleading with God to find another way. Just as we would if our parents came to us and said, “Hey, My Beloved Child, I need you to sacrifice yourself for the redemption of your siblings (you and I) and the people down the street who can’t stand the ground you walk on (the Pharisees).” Jesus was facing a grave task that he frankly didn’t want to do. Yet, there came a time when He realized that he was The Way and that God’s grace would see him through.
Applying that to our lives, I’m curious about what things we need to just accept and rely on God’s grace to deal with. If there was another way of handling life besides depending on God’s timing, I’m sure we would have already found and put it to great use…but there isn’t. Now, thankfully we aren’t facing death for the salvation of others! And what is even sweeter is that all the things we are facing, have already fallen thanks to the same grace and power that snatched Jesus from death’s grip.
My prayer is that you’ll accept the plan that God has for your life and whatever challenges may come along ,never forgetting the fact that only good things come from God, James 1:17.
What if when life feels turned upside down, it is actually downside up?
A couple weeks ago, my life got a little more challenging (or should I say my academic life:) I was spinning wheels like the little engine that could, going nowhere but feeling exhausted like I’ve been everywhere! Spent out of gas and left to settle myself, I finally had a prodigal moment (when you think something else besides “woe is me”) and was like, “I can be miserable and at His mercy or I can be joyful and at His mercy. Either way I’m at His mercy, so I might as well be happy.”
Looking back I see that my life was completely upside down, as I was trusting God, but also subconsciously dependent on myself. That is why my peace was fleeting, as soon as it came, it went, just like a glass full of water that has been inverted. Jesus is a well of living water, 100% accessible to us at all times, but if our cups are turned upside down, then all the joy and tranquility that He offers will leave just as quickly as it enters. Although, this week has been a bit stormy, I’ve had the most constant and lingering peace. It is now truly well with my soul.
Satan cannot and will not bother those that he has his hold on, so if he is afflicting you, that is a great sign. My hope is that Satan is very busy, vainly attempting to steal the peace of God’s children!
Mosaics are beautiful because they are simply stunning yet heartbreakingly complex. They incorporate the good, and the needs improvement. Success and failures. Highs and lows. Victories and losses. Anomalous Darlings over the past year has evolved into a mosaic of its own and mine. All content found on AD, has origins in one of the many pieces of my life’s mosaic. And who pieces this intricate artwork together? No one other, than God, himself…The Ultimate Mosaic Maker.
This is the first time I’ve ever put a picture of myself on anything AD related and for good reason. A year ago, I was still learning myself (and for the rest of my life, I will) and would not have had the courage to embark on this new path that is calling me to. For so long a “needs improvement” piece of my life was the obligation to please people. “What will people think of me?” “How will that make them feel?” “What will they say about me?” These are all questions that impeded the beckoning of God’s will in my life.
My writing and my spirituality go hand in hand. The best way I can describe is that when God is holding my left hand, I can freely write with the right hand. If I am out of contact with Him, I am also out of contact with myself too. You see, there is no I, without the I AM.
This past year had been a tremendous learning experience on all levels of my life. And simultaneously, as I am maturing in myself, so is Jesus and His work in me. A new wave of thoughts is being ushered in my life and will subsequently spill over onto AD. These words that God is speaking are coming like waves, just as fierce and fearless as Jesus’ blood was shed for my salvation. No longer can I stalemate on these tides with my name on them.
Thank you for 1 amazing year and to many, many more! I pray that you will grab whatever mosaic boat you have whether it be a raft or yacht and continue on this journey with me, as I go deeper with God. His goodness is not ending, it’s just beginning…
“As Is: All Sales Final!” Seeing that sign always put me on the edge, as I don’t like the prospect of me getting home with something that might be defective or broken (by no fault of my own) and have no recourse. Although, 9 times out of 10, we are satisfied with our purchases, I believe most of us like the luxury of returning an item, if needed.
Since Satan and our minds love to play the “what if” game, we might as well, go along with it!
What if God knew all of our mistakes before we even made them?
What if God saw the flawed piece of clay that we were?
What if God planned something great to happen on every day of our
What if Jesus had full knowledge of the imperfect people He was
These “what ifs” are true facts! God knew exactly what type of car he was buying. Knew all the pros and need improvements. All the future issues and current joys. He saw the risks, but couldn’t pass up the final reward. Still, He wanted to be our Potter and send His Son as a sacrifice for our lives.
Neither God nor Jesus was jinxed into joining our team. As The Creator of Knowledge, He knew all there was and will ever be about us and yet, with full disclosure, he made His choice. I can imagine God saying something like this: “I still want [insert your name], their edges are a little rough but I can bevel those edges. Their paths are slightly crooked, but I can straighten them. Their heart a mess, but I can purify it. Their lives a train wreck, but I can restore all things. Yep, I still want [insert your name] and nothing and nobody can sway my decision!” He counted up all the costs and reasoned that the benefit outweighed the expenses. He saw the work needed and concluded that the finished product was worth much, much more.
God knew what your issues and flaws were before you even did! You’re like a classic car, with a few dents and dings. You need a new paint job and some fresh tires. An oil change and alignment wouldn’t hurt either. There’s a rattling of some sorts under the hood, that likely needs to be fixed soon. And to top it all off, you have no idea where you are going in life. But God has already scheduled an appointment with the best body and paint repair shop in town. He’s thinking of royal purple or peaceful teal for the paint and spotless white for the trim. He’s elated that next door to the body and paint repair shop is another business that specializes in oil changes, alignments and diagnosis of unknown auto problems. The destination? It’s a surprise! And God sometimes even stands in awe of His own works!
Sometimes my life looks like the picture above. Everything is blurry. Running together. Spiraling somewhere. And like a strong force of gravity the chaos of my life tries pull my mind into it. Blurring my focus. Running faith and doubt together. Spiraling nowhere.
Tries, is they key word here. Satan tried to stop Jesus as a baby, when King Herod authorized the order to kill all baby boys in Bethlehem. Satan tried to discourage David, by making his death, Saul’s personal mission. Satan tried to discredit Noah’s resolve in God, by speaking words of doubt through the townspeople. Satan a trying god…I’ll give him that! He has a fairly decent persistence rate and an equally mediocre creativity rate. He neither stops afflicting God’s children nor cease thinking of devious way to do it.
Try as the big bad wolf did, but he could not blow the third little piggy’s house down. That little piggy was settled. Satan will huff, puff and tell us that he is going to blow our houses down, destroy our careers, rip apart our families and do us completely in, but like a good villain, he never spills the bullseye of his demise. The bullseye: He can’t move settled people. Confident and resolute Christians will withstand all of his fiery trials and fierce floods.
I have made the decision to finally settle some things in my life. Things that were like measly sticks and straws in my heart, shifting around every time life’s gravity pulled on them. No longer am I am double minded. Triple minded. And unsettled. Today, I choose to change and be single minded and settled.
My thoughts and prayers are with the world today as I hope that a settling peace will overcome this world, in the midst of Satan’s last days of destruction…
WE WILL NOT BE SHAKEN, PSALM 55:22.
I have to apologize for missing days and being a bit inconsistent! This time it wasn’t my flash drive, it was lactose. I am sensitive to dairy products and let’s just say that yesterday they demanded that their presence be acknowledged in my life! August was a life-changing month for me. So much happened on both personal and global levels. Things that have left me suspended in the ocean of this great, big world. Just barely hanging on to life, as the next vicious wave comes crashing in, trying to do me in.
I’ve struggled, but I’m still standing. I’ve hurt, but I’m still loving. I’ve stumbled, but I’m still here. We may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning! Hebrews 6:17-20 has been the light in my life through the darkness. Jesus never said the waters wouldn’t rise against us. He never said that life would be smooth sailing. He never said that the currents wouldn’t come violently. But He did say that he would walk through the waters with us. He did say that He wouldn’t ever forsake us. He did say that He would be anchor.
Merriam Webster describes anchors as “a reliable or principal support”. I love that definition! Jesus and everything that He is and stands for is our anchor. Does it take the pain away? No. Does it make everything perfect? No. Does it gift overwhelming peace? Yes. Does it allow joy in sadness? Yes.
1 Peter 5:9, reminds us that we are not the only Christians fighting the good fight. If Satan is turning up the heat in my life, chances are he is doing the same thing to you! Hopefully this post wasn’t depressing. I try to employ, “happy honesty” in my life (and I just coined that as I am writing this). I can be real with my feelings, so long as I keep a joyful heart about it. Who wants to feel just as horrible as their circumstances? I’m going to presumptuous here and answer this question…no one!
My Editor (God) is giving me the signal to wrap up this post, so I’ll end it with this: Whatever you’re going through, I promise you are not alone. God sees every tear, knows every heartbeat and hears every prayer. Great things are up ahead, if only you’ll hold tight to Whom you belong…
Yesterday was my first official day of school and I can’t say that I missed it! This school year is one with a lot of moving parts, as I have to keep up with application deadlines and projects, all while maintaining stellar grades. Anyway, I had a great post, ready to go this morning, until Satan decided to send me a message…
I was brushing my teeth and combing my hair like normal people, when I started having images of flunked tests, fear and failure. Quickly, I had to put Satan in his defeated place, out of my life and remind him of his untimely fate. Never before have I had Him directly afflict me in that way. Yes, people would irritate me. Yes, situations would discourage me. But, those were all indirect sources of evil.
Satan in his end reign is getting bold and we as Christians, have to get even bolder! He is destroying everything in his path and trying with all his might to rope us into his rapidly sinking boat. When Satan sends you a message saying, “You aren’t going to make it through the class, health report, financial strain, family dysfunction etc.”, don’t hit ignore, say “I don’t receive that, Satan. It is written… and my Redeemer lives!”
I am expecting an amazing year of prosperity as Satan can only factor lies from the truth. He is too incompetent to think for himself, so he takes all of God’s original information and duplicates it with his trademark, switching love for hate, joy for sadness, stress for peace. 2 Corinthians 10:4-5, was not written as a mistake. Matthew 4 (when Jesus was tempted in the wilderness) is not a filler story. God knew that Satan would tempt us and because of that He gave us tools to bind the enemy AND a story of someone who successfully did.
Satan may talk, but you don’t have listen…
What influences your life? Or better yet, who? I like to believe that God and His Words frame my world, but last night, I realized that was not all the way true…
“Storage Almost Full
You can manage your storage in Settings”
Yep, I got this message on my phone last night! And you’re probably wondering, “How does one burn through 60 gigabytes of memory in less than a year?” Easy, a phobia of running out. You see, when I take pictures I don’t just take one or even two, I have to have at least 4 or 5. And instead of deleting all the duplicates, I always find a reason to keep them. Like, “What if the picture is too big/small to be cropped?” or the infamous one, “What if the other three get deleted by accident?” The thought of not having enough, whether it’s contact solution, batteries, gas, or lead is just downright frightening. Now, we all have quirks of some sort so don’t judge me J!
It is human nature to search for security and center our lives around those things. My day is already off to an interesting start if I have to put some elbow grease into getting my morning toothpaste! The day is not even broken in yet, and I have already allowed a fleeting phobia to hijack my life! Whether it be financial security through an investment or emotional security through pets…we are trying to fill void that can only be sufficed by God’s love and light.
As children of God, we cannot allow our quirks to pave the way for our lives. We cannot allow negativity, jealously, fear or any other ungodly thing(s) to rule our lives. With God, we have everything we will ever need and thus want for nothing. God loves us with a love that outweighs any and all other things that try to take our lives off the course that he has already charted.
Love lights the way and in those lights of love there is no darkness…
Psalm 119:105 & 1 John 4:18
I have a fairly passive-aggressive personality, in which I normally go completely out of my way to avoid conflict. Whether it be conflict with others or even with myself.
Honesty, is a two way street that must be traveled by everyone and the people they associate with. Integrity is probably one of my biggest pet peeves as I expect it from those around me and hold myself to that same standard.
Today, I had to confront one of the most important people in my life. This person, after God, knows me best…myself. I had to ask and answer some hard questions. Such as “Does my view of myself align with God?”, “Am I truly walking in my redemption?” and the real kicker, “Do I honestly believe that God loves me?”. It’s easier to either a) ignore things as though they don’t exist or b) rationalize things to make them seem insignificant. But neither of these coping mechanisms are beneficial in the end. They simply mask the truth and keep leading us deeper into lies.
Satan is the father of lies, John 8:44, in which if he can’t get his lies to us, he will feed his lies through us. Instead of coming with foolishness himself, he will disguise himself as our inner voice and accomplish his mission, of snuffing out light and honesty for darkness and dishonesty.
God is light and in Him, there is no darkness, 1 John 1:5. His desire is for us to live our lives in His bright light! Only you (and God) know what areas of darkness you may have in your life.
When was the last time you had honest conversations with yourself?
P.S. What came out of my honest conversation with myself? I still have some growing and learning to do when it comes to my faith! But, I have peace about the progress of perfection in me. God is going to keep pruning me until I am exactly as He created me to be! He is adamant about finishing His work in me…and you!